Tuesday, September 25, 2012

13 Weeks

Nothing too much has changed. However, I just had to show that I now have a little pointy bump. Not much, but it is there!
Excuse the mess, I was gathering the laundry. 

Even looking at it just seems so bizarre!

How far along? 13Wks and 1 Day
Total weight gain/loss: According to my at home scale, I have gained nothing.
Maternity clothes? I just got a pair of yoga pants (as seen in the picture above) that I just can't get enough of! I could live in these pants!
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: When I'm not waking up to go to the bathroom, sleep is great! I love it!
Best moment this week: Not related to baby, but got to shoot my first wedding which happened to be my Aunt's. It was a blast and I got to do it with Josh which made it that much better!
Have you told family and friends: Yes. We just told Facebook friends last week and so far have gotten a lot of positive comments and prayers our way.
Miss Anything? Bought my favorite Italian Salami to have with cheese and crackers. I was so excited to get home and eat it! Then I realized it was considered a Deli Meat and the only way I could eat it was to heat it up. Who eats heated up Salami! Gross... and so sad!
Movement: Nothing yet, looking forward to it though =)
Food cravings: Baked potatoes! But if you know me this is nothing new.
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have been doing better with some meat lately but still no sandwiches or peanut butter for me!
Have you started to show yet: A little pointy bump!
Gender prediction: I honestly have no idea right now. Everyone thinks boy, but I'm not so convinced.
Labor Signs: Nope.
Belly Button in or out? Definitely in.
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Tired. Today I feel like I'm not getting enough protein because I just feel weak and needing to eat constantly!
Anything new? This week has started with leg cramps, side aches, and currently lower back pain. I feel it is too early for that!
Weekly Wisdom: Must buy some pregnancy leggings!
Looking forward to: Finding out the gender next month!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

12 Weeks

Well, I'm not really sure if I am doing this more for family and friends, or just for myself. I think it is fun to look back at stages in our lives and maybe I will be curious the next pregnancy. So here is our 12 week update! =)

Here is our beautiful baby! We were so excited about this ultrasound! Baby looks like an actual baby now instead of a bean. This ultrasound had us both in awe, and me in tears. Baby was squirming around! Baby was sucking its thumb, waved to us (as shown above), and even had the hiccups (you could see its little head bobbing from them). It was an indescribable feeling. To see our baby moving about, and not even feeling it yet! I look forward when I get to feel those hiccups! Josh finally got to hear the heartbeat for the first time, and he commented how fast it was too. Our baby is already so loved!

How far along? 12wks 2days
Total weight gain/loss: According to the Dr office I have gained one whole pound!
Maternity clothes? Not really, I have a belly band that I have worn for some of my pants. Some pants I just do the rubber band technique and other pants I can still button.
Stretch marks? Nope.
Sleep: I feel pretty exhausted throughout the day and at night I'm tossing and turning, and getting up to go to the bathroom 4 times a night.
Best moment this week: Seeing our baby!
Have you told family and friends: Of course, just announced it to the internet world though.
Miss Anything? Not too much. I wanted sushi the other day, but that is pretty much it.
Movement: Only what we saw on the ultrasound. Haven't actually felt anything yet.
Food cravings: Whatever doesn't make me sick. I have been really enjoying, oven baked pizza, mac & cheese, spicy v8, oh! and tangerines and been my life saver I have at least a few a day.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Sandwiches and peanut butter, the very thought of them makes me sick! But I have eating a lot of things that wont stay down, just depends on the day.
Have you started to show yet: I can tell I have a little bump and my tummy is harder but it just looks like I'm bloated to everyone else.
Gender prediction: Everyone thinks boy.
Labor Signs: Gosh, I hope not!
Belly Button in or out? Definitely in.
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy and excited! But I will cry at the drop of a hat!
Weekly Wisdom: Get more rest!
Looking forward to: Finding out the gender next month!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Here We Go!

So here we go. It is out in the open and everyone knows (well most everyone, at least those who read my last blog) we are expecting a little miracle! My last post I wrote about our troubles trying to conceive and how after a year all our prayers were answered the same month! I can't say enough how blessed we are. So our new adventure begins and this post will simply be to catch up on the beginning. I would like to keep up to date for all those who wonder how we are doing and don't get a chance to talk to in person often.
When they say "you will just know" boy were they right! After the past year I honestly didn't believe it. I thought the only way I would know is by the test... or if I started throwing up, because that is a rarity for me. Well I knew two days after it happened. I wasn't sick but felt, well different. Of course it was way too early to test, so I had to wait. I told no one how I felt. Josh would have been the one person to tell, but I couldn't get his hopes up. So many times over the year I thought I felt something, and told him so. I think it was just me wanting to see something so bad that I looked into too many things. So for this time, I didn't tell, even though I had a pretty good feeling. 

The two week wait was over. It was a Friday and Josh's last day at his new job. So my plan was to take a test Friday morning and surprise him somehow after work, say it was a "congratulations on your last day" gift. So I took a test. It was so faint, but there it was. The two lines I had been waiting over a year to see. I cried so hard, and laughed even harder. My only problem was, it was so faint I thought Josh was going to think I was out of my mind crazy! So I waited, not sure how, but I did. I took a test the same night, the next morning, and that afternoon as well. My new plan was to surprise Josh after work on Monday now, as a "congratulations on your FIRST day". But Saturday evening Josh wanted to go sleep on the boat and I hadn't slept well in days and wanted to stay home. He told me I could stay home and come out the next morning. I started crying (I blame the emotions for this). I asked him if he would change his mind about leaving if I told him I was pregnant. He didn't believe me, so I showed him the tests. Each one just got darker. He grabbed me and hugged me. I think I even saw him tear up a bit, but he won't admit to that.

We were so happy, and Josh was happy there was a reason I was always complaining about not sleeping, being tired, being hungry, and being emotional. We decided to wait to tell family until the first appointment when we had a picture to show them. During the next week I was in so much pain. Josh would leave around 4:30am for work and I would be bawling because I was hurting so bad. He was worried and asked me to go in. So I did. We had our first actual ultrasound at 4wks. Of course it was too early to see anything, but they check everything and it was looking good. At that point I was at risk and they checked me every two weeks. At 6wks Josh was able to go with me and we saw our little gummy bear for the first time. 

6 Weeks

Right after our appointment we went to dinner at my Dad's house and gave him a late birthday present. He opened the box to a picture frame that said "The best thing about having you for a Dad is my children having you for a Grandpa", below that was the ultrasound, and then a onesie that said "I love Grandpa". My family was very excited! They gave us both hugs and talked about making a spot for them to stay.

A few days after that we went to tell Josh's family. I had done some photography for his Dad and had about 14 frames with all the pictures. As they were looking through the stack of frames, the last one held our ultrasound picture. Again, more hugs and more happiness! Our baby was already loved by so many. 

At our 8wk appointment, Josh unfortunately couldn't make it because he had already taken off work early the week before, so his Mom and younger sister, Chelsey, came along. Baby still looked like a little bean but this time, we got to hear the heartbeat. We were all in awe, I can't say for them, but I definitely teared up. It was so fast! And then the ultrasound tech showed us where the heart was, and we could see the flutter of baby's heart. It was the most incredible experience and I was happy to share it with them.

After the appointment Mom said, "It's a boy." So we will see if she is right in a few weeks. =)

8 Weeks

Friday, September 14, 2012

Journey Over the Year

Ever since I was a little girl I knew what I wanted to be, not a ballerina, or a doctor, or even the president, I wanted to be a mom more than anything. I have always loved working with children of all ages and knew one day I would have my own to love.

So our adventure began. Josh and I decided summer of 2011 that we wanted our own baby to love and cherish. It was exciting to think soon we will be parents! But "soon" didn't come. We heard it was common to take about three months to conceive. Three months came and went and nothing. I have always had a regular cycle and the next month, I was late. I got so excited. Took a test and it came back negative. Waited a week and another test with the same results. For the next three months I didn't have a cycle at all. This was probably the hardest time for me. I guess in our mind, when we decided we wanted to start a family, it would happen... right when we started trying.

Within those three months a lot had happened, a roller coaster of emotions for me. It was hard, you want something so bad and you are not sure you will ever get it. To top that I wasn't sure what was going on with my body. I was told to test every month and maybe my hormones weren't high enough to detect a positive. So every month I took a test. And every month it was as if I lost something. I would know the results before the three minutes were up and yet when I actually saw the negative, I cried. Every time. There were only a handful of people at this time that knew we were trying. We both were continued to be told "Oh don't think about it and it will happen." I hated this phrase. I got it, but still I hated it. How do you not think about it?

Well we set up an appointment to see what was wrong with me. Right before my appointment I had my first cycle in three months. We still went to the appointment to see if there was a reason for the past months. Nothing was wrong. My blood work came back fine and everything looked good. About this time we had been trying for 7months, so my Dr put me on Clomid. Clomid is a fertility drug and the first step we had to take before possibly having to do IVF (In Vitro Fertilization). After a few months of this we would do more testing to see if we were able to have kids.

At this point I was doing much better emotional wise. Now that I was back to normal I didn't have the constant "what's wrong with me?!" feeling. We were still a bit disappointed every month but really just gave it to God. We knew there must be a reason why it hadn't happened yet and we are just waiting for the perfect time.

So a few more months came and went. We prayed everyday. And we had a few more prayers at the time as well. We had been waiting to get insurance for me, just trying to find the right one that would provide prenatal care. As well as Josh's job. He started to really dislike it and the pay started to be not great. He wanted a career, and this was not a career. Then our testing were coming up.

Another month later, we went and did our tests, but had to wait to get the result. Shortly after testing we found out I could still be on my dad's insurance, which was such a blessing! He has great insurance and now I can be completely covered again. A few days after that we got our results back. Nervous and scared we answered the phone. Both Josh and I were perfect. We are able to have children. I fell down crying. It was such a weight I had no idea I was holding.

After we got the results back Josh was finally determined to talk to his dad. For a few months he had been wanting to talk to his dad about working concrete again, but didn't want to actually ask for a job. It was something we prayed about and I continued to ask him, "How is Dad ever going to know if you don't tell him?" Well a few days after our test result his dad called him asking to go out to lunch. Josh thought it was a perfect time to bring it up, but he never got the chance, because his dad asked him to work for him before Josh said anything. Josh came home to tell me. And yet again I was crying, I was in awe that all of our prayers had been answered in the last two weeks. It was overwhelming. The next day we found out the Josh got a significant raise and I was in tears again. We sent our good friends an email telling them everything that had happened and saying "we are blessed beyond our means."

God works in a funny way sometimes. Within two weeks. Literally two weeks I got insurance, Josh got his career, and we were told we can have children. How amazing is that? Well it doesn't stop there. A week after all that goodness happened, I found out I was pregnant! More tears came and then laughing. I just couldn't believe the last month. This is what we had to wait for.

Even though it was a rough year on us both, we wouldn't take it back. We are in a far better place now then when we started trying. And we appreciate our little miracle far more then I believe we would if we had gotten what we wanted right away. We are truly blessed WAY beyond our means. I can't help but smile and thank God everyday for everything we are blessed with. I am now 12weeks pregnant. And will be writing another blog updating on that! This was our journey over the past year, a lot of tears, both sad and happy, and a new beginning. We look forward to what life has in store for us and to enjoying every aspect of our little baby.

Romans 12:12 
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.