Thursday, November 19, 2009

September 5th 2009

It's 11:13pm and I can't sleep. As usual. A minute ago I had a flash back... an amazing day. Amazing does not even come close to describing this day. This day, my life changed. This day is a day I will look back on for the rest of my life, and smile that same smile that I had that made my face hurt till the next night. When I say this day, I mean this day. Not hour, or afternoon, or moment. But this whole day. I don't even know how to explain the way I felt on this particular day. It started early in the morning and that's when I had a feeling what was going to happen, but I still couldn't believe it. I wasn't sure when or how but I knew it was coming. And I was so anxious.

After a full day we ended up walking downtown and came up to a building. We went through these doors that should have been locked. But weren't. We walked up stairs that I had never walked on before. We went outside again and looked at the sun going down, perfectly behind the tower, the water below us, the people walking about not even realizing we were up there. Then we looked around that deck and I went to go back to the ledge because I knew this was it. I had a huge smile. My heart was pounding. And as I walked away from him to look down again the words came out of his mouth and my heart pounded faster. "Hey Ash." I turned. The moment I had been waiting for all day, all day since we were 13 on bus 41 holding hands, was right in front of me. On one knee.

We took that glass that was on the table behind us so we could always remember. But I will never forget that day. Not one moment. Specially the look on his face when he told me he would spend the rest of his life trying to give me the world. Or when we hugged after and I was crying.

But even more so... when he whispered the words into my ear, "I love you so much, Fiance."